Tattoo by Dan McWilliams at Freakshow Tattoo in Fort Collins, CO
Inspired by Louis Wain Early Indian Irish
In 2009 I was diagnosed with PTSD and since have bounced around from therapist to therapist because I refuse to medicate. I didn’t have the courage to tell my friends or family because I felt embarrassed and ashamed to admit I had a mental disorder. I was warned I could develop schizophrenia without proper treatment but I can’t bring myself to take medication. A few months back I discovered Louis Wain and was inspired by his story. While many people viewed his schizophrenia as an illness, through his paintings, I saw him slowly develop a higher level of consciousness. I stopped viewing myself as sick and am beginning to accept that the PTSD is a part of who I am. I struggle daily with feelings of anxiety, depression, and paranoia but when asked about my tattoo I hope to gain support from my loved ones.